thinking

lately i've been contemplating my idea of the attainment of true enlightenment. i'm not sure how to put this concept into words exactly, beyond the fact that all indoctrinations and assumptions from various obligatory societal structures need to be stripped away first. one dimensional assumptions on the nature of what is right and wrong and what we are expected to do with our lives. i aspire to someday be able to maintain an unfettered, pure perspective, in order to understand the true nature of reality.

i've been kind of coming to terms with the insignificance of all of us, how we are fine dust in some dark edge of the universe, yet self-righteous enough to believe we are part of the great cosmic order, we are more than these mortal shells, there are great plans for us after death, we are more than what we are. we all fool ourselves due to humans' capacity for abstract thought, like there are unseen forces at work that make this scattered, unpredictable world a little more tolerable in the end. i think the realization that none of this is the case, is the first step toward said pure perspective...